Let me start a few months ago. Keith and I decided pretty much right away that we would like to start a family. We hit a small roadblock in our plans though. In September, I found out that have a genetic blood clotting disorder. I went and saw a maternal fetal medicine specialist to find out what I needed to do for before even trying to get pregnant, and what to do after I became pregnant... What it all boiled down to is that I was cut off of birth control IMMEDIATELY and considered a "high-risk pregnancy" before ever conceiving. I was also told that as soon as I found out that I was pregnant, I'd have to begin giving myself injections, twice a day, of a blood thinner. The chance of me having a miscarriage as compared to most women is much higher. Therefore, I left that appointment scared and thinking that this wasn't going to be as "easy" as I had hoped.
For the past few months, we've been trying and hoping and praying. But negative pregnancy test after negative pregnancy test has kept us discouraged. I know that I can't complain, since we've only been trying for a few months... and some people try for years and years with no success. Those that know me and those that know Keith, know that we're both creatures of instant gratification... when we want something, we want it NOW!
Me being the pessimist that I am was thinking... geez this is never going to happen.
In mid-January, we went to Disney World with my parents. Seeing all of the families with little kids just made me want a baby of my own more and more. And as corny as it is, every time we watched the Wishes fireworks shows and heard "When you wish upon a star, your dreams come true..." all I thought about was "I wish for a baby... to make us a family".
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